Posts Tagged ‘health


brachial plexus.

I feel like I have to blog about this topic because it weighs on me constantly. And as much as I try to push it out of my head, I’m reminded of it all too frequently.

During my labor with Jolie, I damaged my right brachial plexus which is a very important network of nerves. The brachial plexus runs from your spine under your collar bone and is responsible for the nerves that power your arm. Somehow, by some freak of nature, I managed to stretch mine during labor. The result is that I can’t move my right arm. I can bend it at the elbow, but can’t lift it up or out to the side. And now the muscles have atrophied. It is very uncommon to suffer this kind of injury during labor and thus it took a really long time to diagnose the problem. Most people who suffer brachial plexus injuries are in car accidents or have suffered football injuries. The good news is that it looks like the nerves are regenerating. The bad news is that it will take more than a year for me to regain full mobility. It’s already been 5 months and I’m not even close to being fully rehabbed despite hours of physical therapy, massage, chiropractor, acupuncture and neurology appointments.

As you can imagine, this has made life a little difficult. And even more than the physical limitations, it’s depressing. Anyone who has had to complete physical therapy exercises can relate that it’s hard to make time for them and it’s hard to stay motivated. The progress is extremely slow and the injury can be pretty painful at times.

When I start to feel sorry for myself, I try to remind myself that it could be way worse. And all signs are pointing to an eventual recovery. In the meantime, I just try to stay positive and keep focused.



I’ve been struggling with what to do about working out. I haven’t consistently exercised since a few weeks before our wedding. And I really need to. Besides losing a few pounds, it’ll give me more energy, help me sleep better at night and feel better about myself altogether.  I don’t really want to join a gym, but it’s still pretty cold, dark and rainy to be working out outside several times a week. And then I came up with the perfect solution. P90X! Derek is going to share the garage (aka man camp) with me and I’m going to try to keep to the P90X “Classic” routine! Work out starts tomorrow! If anyone has any experience/advice with P90X, I’d love to hear about it.


workout update.

The results are in! As you may remember, I signed up for personal training a few months ago. It turns out my hard work is paying off. I’ve been at it for about 10 weeks (although there was a 2-3 week break in there due to vacation and being sick). Last week was measurement week.

Waste: slimmed down by 1.5”

Thighs: slimmed down by 1” on each

Arms: slimmed down by 0.5” on each

Chest: slimmed down by 1” (I’m not that excited about this one)

And lost 7 lbs!


feminist vs. goal-setting achiever.

Stan (my sis): What are you up to today?

Me: Not much. I started my first personal training session today.

Stan: Oh really? I didn’t know you were doing that. That’s cool.

Me: Yeah, I’m also going through a bunch of photos from college to find “skinny Kindra” photos. I’m posting them all over my apartment with a note that says “Go to the gym!” It’s to remind myself how great I can look.

Stan: Uh, that sounds like a really great way to develop an eating disorder.

Me: Perfect; that sure would make it easier!


Ok, not really; I was kidding about the eating disorder. But, I have enrolled myself in personal training and I did pull out the photos.  I’m trying to mix-up my workout and stay motivated. It’s hard. I’m not fat, and in reality I’m not even sure I’m classified as “over-weight”. Regardless, I’m not happy with my body right now and it’s been monopolizing a lot of my brain power and energy lately.

The overly self-confident feminist side of me hates that I’m doing this. I don’t want to be that girl that focuses on weight and outward appearances. It’s just annoying to be that person. I should focus on the things that are truly important in life – not weight. I feel like I owe it to all the women and young girls of the world to accept the body I’ve been given and to project a healthy self-imagine.

However, the other side of me (the hard-working, go-getter) is urging me to stop wasting time and get to the gym! Stop thinking about how you aren’t happy and DO something about it. You’ll look (and more importantly) feel better. This is just another goal to be reached. Set the objective, develop a plan of attack…and then attack!

Deep down though, I know I can have it all. The two “sides of me” that I’ve described aren’t mutually exclusive. I can be both! And so, I’ve started the personal training. Ultimately, I believe that when you holistically feel better about yourself (in all areas of life), you are more productive, creative and balanced. I’m hoping I can come to some peace with this whole body image thing and MOVE ON to bigger and better goals. But, for now you can find me at the gym!

PS – I would like to point out that this struggle was made harder yesterday when Derek announced he was embarking on 4,500 calories per day diet to gain weight. Awesome.


morning glory.

Last week, the impossible happened. I actually dragged my sorry butt out of bed at 5:30 to go to the gym before work. My goal was to go Monday – Friday for 45 minutes, and I only made it 3 days.  I only have 45 minutes to work out in the morning, so I feel like I have to go 5 days a week. Regardless of missing my 5-day goal, I’m still extremely proud of myself. To be honest, it’s really not that bad and I absolutely love not having to worry about it the rest of the day. No talking myself in and out of working out 14 times; no getting home from the gym at 7:45 pm; no feeling guilty when I opt-out. It’s awesome! However, it does mean getting to bed early. No more late nights for me.

Hopefully I can make it 5-days this week. Fingers crossed!


new vitamin regimen.

This week I started a new vitamin regimen. Derek has been bugging me for years to start taking vitamins – but it was the encouragement of my pal Allyson that made take the plunge (sorry Derek). She gave me a “test-run” with her vitamins so I could see if I felt nauseous – and surprisingly I felt great!

Here’s what my new regimen consists of; I’ll keep you posted.

  • Women’s Multi-Vitamin
  • Fish Oil Supplement
  • Flax Seed Oil Supplement
  • B-Complex Supplement

skinny fat girl

I am not one of those girls that constantly obsesses about their weight (in fact I’m usually overly confident), but lately I haven’t been feeling my best. My body type doesn’t take well to gaining a few pounds. I’m short, so five pounds is really noticeable on me. Not to mention that I have the shortest legs EVER – and a crazy-long torso. I swear my torso is longer than my legs. WEIRD.

I’m not complaining about my body – all things considered, I think I’m pretty lucky. But, I do know that this body of mine has looked better, and with summer coming up, I’ve got to get it back into prime shape. Truth be told, there are a few upcoming summer events that I want to look good for. I’m hoping that by posting “my plan” here, it will force me to be more committed. I’m going to incorporate a few small changes that will hopefully have an impact. Here’s my plan:

–          No more buying chips.  For those of you who know me – you know this will be hard. Salt is my weakness. If you put a piece of cake and a bag of chips in front of me, I’d go for the chips every time. Now, I’m not saying I can never have another chip – that’s impossible – but I am saying it won’t be a regular occurrence and I won’t be buying them.

–           Work out four times a week. I’ve been pretty lax about the gym lately (2-3x per week) – but I’ve got to step-it-up if I want to see results.

–          Incorporate resistance training/weight lifting into my workout. Usually, I complete my cardio workout and then leave. In order to tone up, I’ve got to get in the habit of doing the “other” stuff too.

–          Water, water and more water. I drink a lot of water already, but there is always room for improvement.

–          Think twice. Just be smart about what do and don’t eat. Smaller portions. Less eating out. There’s nothing revolutionary about it.

How will I know if I’ve been successful? Well, I don’t own a scale, so I’ll just have to see how I feel and how my pants (or bridesmaid dress) fit. Wish me luck!



About a year ago, my doctor recommended that I get the HPV vaccine (Gardasil). Apparently, 26 is the cut off age – so I felt the need to start the series immediately. It is a three-shot series and yesterday I got the last of the three. I have to tell you, it hurts like a MOTHER! My arm feels like someone stabbed me with a butter knife and is twisting and turning it in meaty part of my shoulder. Ew – “meaty part” of my shoulder. Why did I describe myself as “meaty”? Must be an insight into how I’m feeling about my weight. Anyway, I wish my arm would just fall off. And since I’ve had this done twice before, I know I have another three days of dead-arm to look forward to.

Oh well – here’s to a cervical cancer-free future!

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