Posts Tagged ‘baby

19
Jun
12

randomness.

It’s been so long since I posted. And I’d really like to post a thoughtful and meaningful entry. But frankly, I’m just too tired to put that much thought into a post right now.  Instead, a laundry list of randomness will have to do.

– Jolie started rolling over last week. It was SO exciting and sad at the same time. It was sad because I missed it – I was working. Of course, she’s rolled over 100 times since then, but I missed the first one. My brain kept telling me “Don’t overreact. It’s not a big deal. There are going to be a million ‘firsts’. Don’t sweat it.” Unfortunately, my heart didn’t agree. I found myself crying at my desk. Absolutely pathetic. At least nobody saw me!

– I continue to be annoyed daily by the idiots of the world. I would be so much happier if we could eliminate cigarette litterers, cops on segways, low-rider cars, traffic and bumper stickers.
Sleep training is going ok. The “cry-it-out” part is getting easier and shorter. But she’s still pretty inconsistent with her sleeping. Last night was a good night, but the night before was a very bad night.
– I LOVE living on Alki. I think it’s one of the most awesome neighborhoods in Seattle. LOVE IT!
– We had a lovely father’s day on Sunday. We had some friends over for brunch and then had the rest of the day to relax. It was perfect!
– Derek, my mom and Kristen sat me down the other day and had an “intervention” for me. For my shoulder. They are worried that I’m not doing my physical therapy and that it’s not getting better and won’t get better. It was all very dramatic and over the top. The truth is that I’m exhausted and the physical therapy takes an hour each night. But, I know that they are right and that I do need to make more of an effort. I’m only hurting myself. In fact, I need to wrap this up so I can get to it.
04
Jun
12

clenched teeth.

It has been an emotionally trying week with Jolie. First of all, we started sleep training on Friday…the cry-it-out method. We started sleep training for two reasons. We’d like her to develop some better self-soothing skills and she needs to start sleeping better throughout the night. She’s waking up WAY too many times throughout the night and we’d like to get her in a better routine. It is so hard to listen to your baby cry. I can’t stand it. My nails are gone. My jaw is tense from clenching it. And I think I’ve developed a twitch. I keep waiting for it to get easier.

The second traumatizing event is that she started daycare today because Derek returned to work. I really love our daycare situation, but it was still hard. Really hard.  I cried after we dropped her off and I felt super anxious all day.  Our daycare owner was SO sweet and compassionate; she even texted me updates and photos throughout the day (see photo below). Clearly Jolie handled it better than me! Hopefully this gets easier.

Update: After 36 minutes of crying, she just fell asleep. Yay!

23
May
12

smarty pants.

I promise to post some recent photos of Jolie soon – but I had to share this one! She’s in her aunt’s glasses. It just cracks me up!

09
May
12

jolie’s birth day.

Since mother’s day is approaching, I thought it would be a fitting time to tell the story of how I became a mother. There are no words to describe what a whirlwind Jolie’s birth was. I’ve tried writing this so many times now and I’m really struggling. Nothing I write seems to express how emotional and deeply personal the experience was for me. This is the best I can do…

The evening started off fun! I met Stacy for dinner at Tup Tim Thai and we had a lovely evening catching up! I felt completely fine. Later that evening, I felt a small rush of fluids. Nothing big (a couple tablespoons at best). I just chalked it up to weird pregnancy stuff (which happens a lot). Then it happened again about 20 minutes later. By the 3rd or 4th “rush” I started to get nervous. This just didn’t seem normal. Derek was convinced that I was overreacting, and I figured I probably was too. Regardless, I called the nurse hotline. They told me that it was probably nothing, but that I should come in just to be safe. So we jumped in the car, determined to make it a quick trip.

To my surprise they told me to get comfortable because I would not be leaving the hospital until the baby was born (so much for having a bag packed and being ready)! My water had broke. They explained that in cases of a premature rupture there is increased risk of infection. That being said, it was still important for the baby to stay put and develop. The ideal situation would be for me to hold out until 34 weeks at which point they would induce. However, if I started laboring sooner than 34 weeks they wouldn’t stop it. On Wednesday night when I checked into the hospital I was 32 weeks and 5 days

By 3pm the next day I started going into labor. I was completely panicked – it was too soon. What happened to my week-long hospital stay?!? SCARY! I’m not going to go into too many details here, but I labored and labored and pushed and pushed. And finally after being in labor for 15 hours the doctor determined that I had the wrong pelvis shape to deliver the baby. A c-section was ordered. About 20 minutes later (at 6:23am Friday morning), my beautiful daughter Jolie was born. She surprised us all and tipped the scale at 5lb 2oz and 18 inches which is huge for a 33 week old baby. Jolie spent the next 34 days in the NICU and came home with us on January 18th.

Jolie’s birth and subsequent NICU stay was the single most emotional and trying time in my life. I was completely unprepared for the intense love and deep anxiety that goes along with having a preemie. There is just no way to prepare for it. We were so lucky to have a wonderful medical care team and a strong support system in our friends and family. Thank you to everyone who called, texted, visited, prayed, etc – we are eternally grateful. I do have a couple people I’d like to thank individually.

Dr. Cricket Davenport (OBGYN) and Dr. Andrew Beckstrom (Neonatologist) – Thank you for your compassion and strong leadership. When you’re faced with traumatic situations, you want confident and competent doctors – which you were. We deeply appreciated you taking control of the situation while carefully explaining what was happening to us. Thank you for delivering my healthy baby girl.

Barb the NICU Nurse – There will always be a place in my heart for you. You were the first person who let me hold my daughter and you were our biggest advocate to release Jolie from the NICU. You were always there with words of encouragement, practical advice and hugs when we needed them. I will forever be grateful to you.

My sister – I will never be able to thank you enough for your support. Sitting with me by Jolie’s crib for hours. Keeping me company. Driving me around. Making me eat. Listening to me cry (which I’m sure got old).Celebrating her milestones. And snuggling with the boot when I couldn’t be there.  I can honestly say I would have never gotten through it without you.

My mom – Who shows me by example everyday how to be a good mom. We are so thankful for all your constant love and support.

Derek – I didn’t think it was possible to love you more than I did, but I do. I couldn’t have asked for a more supportive and involved husband. You were such a pillar of strength for me – never once getting frustrated with my never-ending flood of tears. My heart grows every time I see you with our daughter; she adores you. And we are both lucky to have you.

Jolie – My sweet baby boots. You are so amazing – thank you for being such a fighter!  You have brought so much joy to our lives and I cannot imagine life without you. I’m excited to see you experience all the wonderful things that life has to offer. I’m honored to be your mother.

Here are some of Jolie’s first photos. She looks so different now, it’s hard to believe she was ever so small and fragile.

28
Nov
11

updates.

I have not posted in SO long, I feel so guilty. And there is simply no excuse. I don’t even know where to begin. Here we go…

  • Only 10 weeks left of being pregnant. I’m getting pretty big and sleep is starting to become a challenge. Overall, the pregnancy has been a breeze. I feel SO lucky! One small blip (at least I’m hoping it’s small), is that my white blood cell count has been elevated for the past month or so. Usually, a high WBC count would indicate some kind of infection, but I feel fine and have no signs of infection. It’s got the doctors stumped and me a little worried. They are sending my results to a hematologist this week to see if they have any useful insights.  
  • We had Thanksgiving at my mom’s house this year. It was delicious and tons of fun. I absolutely LOVE Thanksgiving.
  •  This week is my golden birthday; I turn 30 on the 30th. I decided I’m going to have a much bigger celebration next year for my 31st, since the pregnancy has really put a damper on my drinking.
  • The nursery is coming along nicely. I’ve never put so much thought and effort into decorating a room. But it’s worth it – it’s looking great!  I want her to feel welcomed and have a nice space. Plus, it gives me something to focus on rather than freaking out about the upcoming delivery incessantly.
  • We bought a car – finally! As some of you know, neither of us had “kid friendly” vehicles. I drove a 2 door Honda (not ideal for schlepping a car seat in and out) and Derek drove a 2 door Toyota Tacoma truck.  After a long and thorough search, we ended up with the perfect vehicle for us! Now we just need to sell Derek’s truck!
  • Recently someone asked me if I was going to stay home with my baby. When I said that the baby would be going into daycare after 6 months, this person proceeded to tell me what a bad idea it was because I’m going to miss so much. Gee, I never thought of that. Thanks. I’ll just crawl into a hole and cry myself to sleep.
  •  We started Wednesday Night Dinners a few weeks ago, and it’s been awesome! I LOVE eating. 🙂
30
Oct
11

omg.

96 days until we have a baby! Ok, probably not exactly 96 days, but 96 days until my due date. It’s getting so close I can barely stand it! I hope she’s doing ok. I’m so excited to meet her.

07
Oct
11

nursery.

I’m thinking along these lines for our nursery! Coral and white (not so much the fake dog in the corner) and a big white tree decal (see photo below). It’s so exciting!




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